Being "OA" mom

   Early this day, i received a  call from my kumare, informing me that she brought my daughter and her yaya  to their  house.  I agreed to her mechanically, after i put down the phone, i realized that my entire body got tensed, my heart palpitates strongly and my blood literally boiled. I  just thought something was wrong!

  I immediately texted the driver where he was, which immediately informed me that he was just parked at the back of the building of the school.  I called my husband and told him to call the driver immediately and told him to pitch my daughter and the yaya from my kumare's house. That time, I am so nervous  and angry that i transformed into an evil incarnate.  worried mother.

   My kumare called again  and explained that my daughter was  playing with her daughter,  though i felt thankful,  my OA reaction was  still rising. I talked to the  yaya and asked her why she did not texted or looked for the driver, and why did she brought " her alaga" to others' house without my knowledge. She meekly told me that she has no load. My ***!, if she has no load, then she should have stayed inside the school or went down the parking area and  looked for the driver thoroughly and not just peek out of the window.

  I know my reaction was OA to the maximum level, but i think being a mother makes a mother really OA. As a working mother, i am unfortunate that i cannot be at my children side every moment of their lives, and i guess that my being OA comes from the fact that i am guilty  i was not at their side,  and worried that a yaya will not guard them or take care of them in the same way that a mother should.